Monday, November 22, 2010
@ 10:09 AM
suddenly i thought have i really been too selfish and nvr care enough abt bf feelings???
am i that mean n uncaring? always makin bf angry n worried n upset.
is that all i'm capable of?
always not wantin to do all this yet it always happen
always happen before he book in makes everything feels crap
and i'm gettin from bad to worst cant help feelin better.
when my awful feelin i jus dont knw wad i wan.
i always makes things worst.
nw that this point of time i feel even more crap
i cant help feelin better but i also dont wan u to worry.
i'm in the verge of really collapsing and breakin down.
i jus cant take another blow anymore.
we made each other happy bt we also made both of us feel like crap.
u always say things will get better.
in the past i always trust u.
but nw i keep havin doubts
u say things will be alright but no it jus get worst.
we'll keep arguin again.
this relationship both make me really really happy but also really sad too.
i jus dont knw hw to keep going.
every other time crying even for the smallest thing.
its pathetic u knw. i feel pathetic but i jus cant control the tears.
i cant control my feelin and jus made things worst.
i'm on the verge of collapse alr.