today went visiting with bf n his clique.
meet at 10 n waited till 11.30 before we left cause one of his friends was THAT late!
even so i had a time of my life :)
visited 6 houses in total.
during cny i also dont do that many visiting.
was a great learning experience for me too :)
learnt lots of new stuff n tried new food.
the best part was spending every single moment with bf :)
each time i spent time with bf is being treasured :)

bf taught me many new stuff. n i love him lots :)

ytd went an last min outing with mich n wy.
was suppose to meet earlier but me n mich overslept.
after that went to get breakfast before heading to wy hse.
then went to play frisbee n baobao:)
super long very see baobao le. he change a lot. but still super cute.
but somehow i feel bad playing with baobao. over some reasons. ya.
anw after that went back to wy hse before heading for lunch at wy sis place.
cam hore with a swing on our way there.
after that met up with someone before heading to watch g-forces :)
then had to depart with darlins before heading for trg.
trg was alright.
after that ate prata till late 11 before leaving.
took the same bus with soffia n sh. n somehow i felt weird. n i was also very upset by wad someone did.
anw waiting super long at 201 was kinda worried there might not be any bus :(
lucky there was n reached home close to 1!!!

awww man.. i feeling PHYSICALLY terrible all over.
muscle ached since tue trg.
sore throat since wed.
lots of bruises
fingers hurt.
all this makes me feeling all grouchy.
hope tml dental appointment wont be painful.
or it adds on.

r u referin to me?? r u?? r u??
yearning back for the past but its impossible n things will NVR be the same again.
i dont know if u know.
but both of us were in the wrong. unless u dont feel u were in the wrong.
to me both of us were.
i understand the feelin.
i went through it before.
not once not twice but i number of time.
keep tellin myself i shouldnt let it happen.
but at the point of time i cant help it.
at the time its was kinda stressful, n a little creepy thinkin of those thoughts.
n now.. wow.. i dont know wad to say. i've no comments.
guess i kinda deserve it i guess.
but still.. i also dont know how to put to words.
it more tiring being happy n sad at the same time then being sad totally.

ok.. the day went great today :)
n how i wish this will remain as it is.
was late for trg. n got a lecture from coach.
however it was followed by a praise.
anw ya i admit i was wrong the other time.
so now its kinda gettin back on me.
but i dont get it.. it seems another group of 'rachel' gang is being formed
ya. so today trg kinda sucks a little at the same time it dint.
n cause of trg i dint went for mini class gathering..

i find i'm having difficulty copin.
at times i feel left out.
too busy.
i wanna be part of it but i'm too busy..

wad this feelin i'm having.
this quirky feeling i have.
i'm a bit regretting it..
but at that time i wasnt.
i kinda miss ur presence. but i'm afraid of history repeating?
k yes. i guess i was wrong.
but still..
who wont help thinking that way.. hmm..
overall no matter wad. friends r still important. very important.

enjoyed myself today :)
had half day work then went help zamir with adding of tiles at the high wall..
but no matter how much fun it was.
every time i think abt results i'm dam sad :(
especially when i'm alone..
haiz.. sian la..
when will i get over it..

kinda good thing i got my things done..
and also got my results.
feeling kinda sad n happy but 90% sadness.
good thing i dont have to take supp paper..
bad thing my gpa is very low :(
but when i know how i did for biochem n hap i was glad.
but the overall still sucks :(
gonna get over this soon n work hard the next sem.
but it seems hard to do it now :(
i've tried comfort food. but it doesnt seem to help..
chocolates.. sweets.. ice cream..
but...
really need to go out and really enjoy.. with 'u'
but.....

feeling much better :)
enjoying my hols
and things have been settled :)
dont need to ponder on them anymore..
my hols now consist of climbin, working and slacking :)
now i only worry abt my results..
when does it comes out??
how will i fare??
hmm..
still i'm satisfied :)

ytd wad feeling kinda bad..
n i guess it kinda show..
so it became a 100% exercise day..
woke up and ran from my hse to lp to sch there..
then went swimming swam for 24 laps..
endurance climbing at yishun..
routes at safra..
it kinda sucks from not telling u..
but i dont know..
i really wasnt myself..
especially when sometimes i feel 'u' r 2 2 sided person..
being mean at times. and nice the next moment.. eee!!
i was also a little upset with u.
but couldnt be when i saw u.

me digo que estoy satisfecho con R.
cómo funcionan las cosas.
sin embargo cada vez que recibe más n más codiciosos ..
n más ganas de más ..
n la esperanza de más más.
Estoy NVR satisfecho.
n siempre la codicia de más. : (
su tan irritante!
a veces me siento su unilateral.
No me atrevo a esperar demasiado.
no se atreven a tener grandes esperanzas ..
causa de su demasiado bueno para ser verdad.
no importa cómo es agradable ir las cosas.
I NVR tendrás un cuento de hadas ..
la mayor mi esperanza de la mayor caída i.

las cosas tal vez demasiado bueno para ser cierto ..
Tengo miedo ..
Si espero demasiado ..
Voy a caer aún más profundo ..

so have been enjoying myself during the hols :)
but is kinda worried..
i'm have more n more rashes :(
its jus like came from no where..
my feet legs and now my arms :(
and its FREAKING itchy!!!
urgh!!
dont know its it due to the prawn i ate during bbq on fri.
but its like how many days ago??
hope it gets better...