black and white is the theme for today:)

yes. i read my previous post this morning.
i admit it may sound sarcastic but i never meant it that way.
never have i even thought it would sound like this to anyone to you .
nor did i pin point to anyone.
but still if you think is this is that i cant do anything.
i apologise if it is.

it's michelle chan's birthday today..
everything went well, smoothly.
until someone said something to me.
maybe, i thought i heard wrongly but i dont think so.
it totally break my heart.
still i put on a smiling face. :)
cause i dont want to spoilt everyone mood.
but in the end, i couldn't control my emotions.
i couldn't. i couldn't.

when can i ever control them.
every time they fall, they fall at the wrong time.
when there are people, when all of you are there.
it's totally embarrassing.
but the more i'm comforted, the more it falls.
i'm sorry but i really dint mean the day to end like this.
i really dint.
i also dint want you all to see me like that.

i've this feeling that when ever i'm close to her you will be.....
i dont know.
i cant describe the feeling.
maybe they are just my wild guesses but i dont know.
i dont wish things to turn out like this between us.

anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!