Friday, July 13, 2007
@ 11:46 PM
the day have been waiting for has arrived..
i thought it wound be longer..
for the pass few months there is a big big part of me which is missing.
and it was hurting..
i thought i could forget.. NO
i thought i could go back.. UNSURE
but now it seems weird..
i was asked to join u guys
at that moment, i was feeling happy, excited, thinking of what is to come but there was something restrain me..
and somehow i dont know why, i rejected..
if i did upset you in anyway i'm deeply sorry.
i dont know if i let go of my one and only chance or wad..
but one think for sure i learnt from my mistake, i dint want to take things for granted..
it was my fault that i left you guys and i'm deeply repentant..
i know i cant mend the past and so do i not want to repeat the same mistake..
i was treated well when i went there..
(thought a big part i felt was missing..)
i dint wan to upset them like i did to you guys..
(althought a little part of me is confuse of how a few think abt me..)
you guys have taught me a lot and forgiven me for my mistakes..
(i am really greatful for that, really am..)
but i feel that time have given lots of things to change..
i afraid i am unable to catch up the time that i have lost, that have pass..
or maybe i am thinking too far ahead..
maybe i was just invited as a friend..
maybe, just maybe..
now i am really in a big big dilemma..
what am i to do..
someone tell me..